(Eminem was amazing on the Grammy's last night. Best performance all night!)

Looks like my dieting days are over. At least until August. I've been procrastinating with my updates during all my nasty morning sickness and general lack of motivation. Buuut looks like I'm back and ready to start posting my huge stash of photography and graphics again :]

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Pretty chill night last night with my hubby's cousin. Lots of wine and shopping for some fun sexy stuff. I <3 her. Back to boring today. Did my nails, made dinner for my hunny, now for the Victoria's Secret fashion show.

I can't wait to feel like myself again. I feel like I've been in a funk for the last year and a half. Getting back to healthy should help that. I hope.

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Life has been almost surreal these past couple months. This whole trying to get pregnant thing really isn't as easy as everyone makes it seem. It irritates me that so many girls "accidently" get pregnant when they're still in highschool or in no situation to even take care of a baby then when someone is ready to try it takes so long. It's hard to be so excited for something but have no control over when it'll happen.

We finally got the loan on the house though so we'll be moving into it at the end of this month or the beginning of the next. We're both so excited to finally be taking this next step in our lives. The husband is already laying out plans for the backyard and I'm looking at paint samples. It's nice to have something this great to look forward to.

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12 days until our wedding, and I haven't lost the weight I wanted to before then. I'm dreading the number of people that are going to be here. Way more than I wanted. Nerves are really starting to kick in because we won't have the money to finish the last couple little things until TWO DAYS before the wedding. Which means I'll have his entire family in my hair while I'm trying to finish up last couple tasks at hand, and I don't feel like listening to everyone try and tell me I should do things differently. I hate that. I'm also dreading that all of his family, even ones who don't ever bother to keep in touch, will be here and I'll only have my mom, dad, stepmom and siblings.

On a happier note: we picked up the rings over the weekend. I got the weirdest jolt of excitement when I watched him try his on. It's crazy that I'm marrying the guy I've wanted to be with since I was a kid, because he spent so much time saying he never wanted a serious relationship, to live with someone, or to get married and now we're planning on buying a house and having kids in the next 12 months. Crazy.

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